I've made a decision to do something. 
Will update on what's that thing again.

It has been something that has been missing in me for a year or 2.
It has been something i've always wanted to do since young. 

But im apprehensive over this decision.

One, I'm afraid of the outcome.
Two, he has expressed that he does NOT want me to do it.

)):

But, I really have got to do it. Just this once. Cause its really me.

Anyway, the lack of sleep from the past few nights since Saturday has bad and good effects.

I was literally flaring up at him last night on the phone.
Saying i dont understand why some things are being done this way or that.
Today, with a clearer mind, I understood what he said was so right.

"There is no right or wrong. There is no good or bad.
People make different decisions based on previous experiences.
Thus every year, the decision would be different and seem to oppose the prev.
Just let them go already. You verbally say you have.
But look at how you're constantly worrying..."

): okay. i know i know. haha.

But in the end, I realised, how much you actually care about me and what you say is so true. =)