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‘‘gonna keep on trying’’
Prologue
the girl next door



It is always very easy to have big dreams. But it's gonna be hard to achieve them. For too long, everyone have been wanting big changes. You know, something impactful and life changing. Like 3D Movies, Harry Potter and Facebook. I'm not complaining.

But maybe it's time for some of us to set our visions a little lower. Time to let us return to humanity and do small changes. Small changes that actually matters more.

So while everyone is out to make a big difference. I'm trying my best to make a minor difference.

In humanity. I'm still trying.
To be more selfless and less selfish.

By the way, I love 2ne1.

I'm random. If you still didnt get it. (:

Archives
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For him. If you're not him, its your choice to read or not.
Monday, May 31, 2010

This is going to be a damn long and wordy post. I think.
Maybe i'll cut short by the end of it.
Anyway, the issue I wanted to talk about is meeting the parents.
Not my parents of course but his parents.

Firstly, being introduced is a big and important issue in his family culture.
That's precisely why ever since we knew of one another's feelings,
I did not step into his house at all.

It did get quite on my nerves cause Singapore is bloody small.
And sometimes, I just want to slack and laze around rather than shop around.

Secondly, I'm not very into the idea that he's so important to his close family and even relatives.
Cause it probably means that they will hate me since i took him away from them.
Yes, i know. Pretty wired up brain of mine.

Lastly, I'm just a socially awkward person.
Yes, I'm talkative to all of you.
But NOT, to strangers.

So when I was actually asked to go on board the ship with his mum and relatives.
I was quite pissed off cause he was the one who was quite uptight about introducing me.

Anyway, I still met them at the ferry terminal.
I think that's where his torturous journey began.
For the first time, I'm just gonna spam my unreasonable-ness. lol.

I got ticked when his cousin asked about my fake glasses.
Sorry but ISNT IT WEIRD TO ASK SOMEONE
"Why are you wearing this specs with no lens?"
I MEAN, WHY ELSE WOULD I WEAR IT FOR?
FASHION LA! =.=

Yes, that's how ill and hot tempered i am.
But this one i never show that im ticked.

Then, his mum talked about my legs casually.
Okay, I wasn't pissed. Just rather hurt and upset.
Won't elaborate cause the poor bf really put in alot of effort to assure me. (:
And yes, his mum wasn't freaked out about it. It was just a passing remark.

HAHA. See how unreasonable i can be.

Then finally on board the ship.
I got ticked cause the older relatives started talking very loudly.
Acting like well...aunties.. and that seriously annoyed me.
And it didnt help that I'm freaking deprived of sleep.

So i was just keeping damn quiet, with a very blank look in my eyes.
And he kept urging me to cheer up.
While i continued stoning.

I think what cracked me up was the couple having sex next door.
HAHA. We were giggling like a bunch of kids under the blanket..
and on the pathetic 50cm wide bed.
I still wondered if his mum could hear it too cause she's sleeping just below us. lol..

The next day, it was much better.
Certain things happen, I'm not gonna hao lian here. HAHA.
But yeah, much better.

In all, i just gotta say this.
I'm damn amazed by jason's patience and thoughtfulness.
And im still not comfortable in the family's presence.

My last few words for this post is..
Why girls always blog/say that they will be meeting the bf's mum so early and so excitedly?!
I seriously don't think it's a big deal if you met her so early (Less than half a year r/s).
And i'm not excited at all. i almost wet my pants. LOL.

It's just weird how come i've never heard of cases like me being annoyed and uptight.
Maybe his family's culture is different. But yeah.
I'm just a little grossed out when people talks about being introduced to one another's family members as "exciting" and "fun" and like its a very HAOLIAN-ABLE thing.

Yes, IM TRADITIONAL deep down still. haha.
I think such introductions are awkward and downright formal.

The one i've gotta thank for bearing the worst of me and trying to improve things is still him.
The poor middleman stuck in between.



Yes you do, Mr Koh. =)

P.S: Upcoming post will be about you again! HAHA.


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LOL(s) and more
Sunday, May 30, 2010

First up! Jason's graduation on 26may. LOL.
I believe you've heard of the infamous mispronunciation of a poor student's name as KNN.

Anyway, went to sokteng's hse for mahjong in the morn.
Took 5 bloody hours to complete one round.
VAL, im not blaming you for why we took so long.

HAHA. Anyway, I can clearly remember me and sokteng looking so goddamn pissed..
When Jason spoke to us so fiercely but so nicely to Val..
LOL. He got hell from me after that on the way to grad..
I just didnt want to forgive him cause its nice to see the boyfriend pleading.. HAHAHA.


YAY, start of grad post with typical BIGASS stage model of the word GRADUATION.


And then a very unkempt me and a very smart him.
Hahaha. I dunno why my hair so messy.


Like a family portrait ya? HAHA.
Thanks jit for acc-ing.


Jiemin is also graduating at that period.
HAHA. A very disgruntled pose from both of us.


Group shot! I have no recollection of why that guy on the left was there.
Let me declare that marcus, bing and jit are very demoralising.
Because after meeting them, I FELT DAMN BLOODY FAT. ):

AND yay, we've GRADUATED!

The next day, 27may, was the graduation dinner.
HAHA. Of which i laughed when the person who called me
said that top students are invited only.
I think i made her day by telling her, "but my GPA sucks."

LOL. Well, anyway, thanks to TAS, I get to go!


Us cabbing down to Orchard hotel.
Haha. My whole afternoon was spent just watching videos at van hse.
And irritating her i guess. LOL!


He was oddly emo-ish. I don't know why.
Until now. Hmmmm..


Trying desperately to get a shot of my bling bracelet and SEXY BACK~
This is the brightest and best i can do. MAKE DO.


HAHA. Silly posers.


And a failed attempt to look like im...
Okay, its so fail until i dont remember what im trying to do.
But check out my heels! nice right...


Our male slave. LOL.
But he brought me luck cause that was the first time in my life winning a lucky draw.


Don't treat you so bad. Take nice and loving one.
HAHAHA.

28may was shopping with grace and elix and korean food.
I returned home with a damn bloated stomach please.
No photos.. =/

Anyway, 29may, after tuition went to his house.
HAHA. Sorry jason, but i think i like your uncle best.
He's damn funny la. Sms him that im at his house, 5 minutes later he at the doorstep.
i dont have an uncle that is so caring about my relationship one lor!


Anyway, went off to tanah merah ferry terminal to take a ferry to batam.
YES JASON, that ulu looking island is batam, i see online one.
Then, anth ferry to the Leisure World ship.
Basically, it's a floating casino. The legal age limit is 18 and above.
thus, we can go.

And my purpose is only to acc jason who is there to acc the mum.
Ended up falling in love with gambling the 3 cards game and jackpot.
HAHAHA. Total loss of $270 by both us. Which, he covered $250.
Damn, im a mean girlfriend.

It was an eye opener, seriously.
And okay! When it was 3am and we headed to bed.
I went into the room's toilet and pee, when i came out, Jason was damn excited.

He told me to shut my mouth and listen.
AND I HEARD A GIRL MOANING. HAHAHAHA.

Sex next door and despite them blasting their radio, we could still heard them.
So me and jason were like lying under our blanket trying to sleep..
But giggling like little kids.

HAHAHA. that couple was so into it until I could hear
their bed creaking and knocking around la.

Anyway, Jason and i shared a bed which was like 50cm wide.
NB lucky i damn tired or i wont be able to sleep.
And his mum, auntie and cousin shared a bed three times our bed's size.
The room was really damn small.
Im still amazed at how 5 of us can squeeze in. LOL.


Anyway, bloody tired now.
An abrupt end in post.
Next post, i'll blog smth about an issue i've so long wanted to discuss.
BYE!



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NAMES!
Wednesday, May 26, 2010

HAHA. Saw grace blog's and was tempted to try it out on my own.

Jason koh! this is yours!

MINE is THIS!

Mine isn't that interesting but hahaha!
One of 'Jason' meaning got this "Something you would/should name your penis"

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.
okay i admit that im bored. LOL.


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photos!
Sunday, May 23, 2010


Took this on the random day to Marina bay sands resort.
I'm so gonna cut bangs again.


This is not photoshopped at all.
Used flash and was like, "OMG WHY DO I LOOK SO FAIR?!"






















A very disturbed face of me cause SOMEONE keeps annoying me. LOL.

















For endlessly annoying me, he gets a scratch. HAHAHA.

NO LA IM NOT SO SADISTIC LA!
It's true the scratch was caused by me on purpose.
But it's only because he irritated me first.

HE SLAPS ME TOO!

HAHAHA.
One day, we are so gonna get our video taken on our MRT rides and be a hot topic on stomp.
When he said that our video might be taken, i just stared at him and said:

"is my make up fine?"

HAHAHAHA.

Forever playing scissors paper stone, ji gou ba and chopsticks.
And violently whacking one another. HAHAHAHA.




















Emo-ing. Cause i bring him lots of unhappiness.
WAHAHAHA.

Anyway, went to City Square JB to watch SHREK 4!
Puss is so adorable. Other than that, just an average movie.

Am so glad he agreed to watch. Previously he kept saying,
"okay, watch Shrek*points at me*"
Nabeh.




I will treasure the last few days we have before you get freedom taken away.
And i get my main entertainment taken away. ):

I'll miss having the daily feeling of laughing till my stomach ache.


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I AM DONE
Saturday, May 22, 2010

Finally found a suitable blogskin and yes!
THIS IS IT! =)


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Reconstructing!
Thursday, May 20, 2010

Still doing up the blogskin!


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=/
Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Ineedtofigurethisoutandchangeitsoon!
orimayconsidergoingbacktobloggersoicaneditmyskins!



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When??
Monday, May 17, 2010

Recently, for the past few months i mean, i've been keeping up with Music Bank, Music Core and Inkigayo more than i ever did.
Lee Hyori made me want to watch her more, hoping to see her wear something that reveals her abs.
HAHAHA. Don't i sound naughty.

Rain just freaks me out. Okay. I think too-muscular guys just freaks me out.

Now Super Junior is back and it's nice and damn satisfying to watch them.. 
Well, all i just have to do is to avoid Leeteuk's nipples.
SERIOUSLY, someone should get him a shirt.

Then we move on to girl groups..
KARA's Lupin definitely caught my attention, esp after Seungyeon' accidental fall:

I'll definitely cry like a bitch after falling LIKE THAT.
But well, lets just say I see them in a diff image after this song and incident.

SNSD's OH live performances are just well, as usual, weak.
Run devil run was not bad actually, I was quite surprised.

After school's Bang was boring. Watched one and stopped.

Now.. F(X)'s NU ABO is ongoing.
Minimal chemistry. Barely can make it singing. Not-catchy song.
Okay, I'm only sounding real critical cause i just saw another of the performance.

SO WHAT'S THE WHOLE POINT OF THIS BLOG POST?!

Well, I'm missing 2ne1 suddenly. =(

WHEN ARE THEY COMING BACK MAN =(



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Shrek 4 puss-in-boots LOL
Sunday, May 16, 2010

taken from Shrek 4's trailer. LOL.
cute ugly thing. HAHAHA.



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Siwon and Hyori
Saturday, May 15, 2010

My eyebrows always hurt when I see people performing and frowning.
Hahaha.

Look at Siwon. I feel so upset for him whenever i see him in Bonamana.
His face like forever like that one!

Like Lee Hyori who go and extend her eyebrows 90degrees down to her nose.. LOL.
Always look so fierce.

Not that its a bad thing.
Just that my eyebrows are tired for naturally frowning when I see them perform.
HAHAHA.



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Super Junior and..the muscles(?)

Yup, they are back with their new song: Bonamana.

The starting when Siwon first sang, I felt that it reminded me of Sorry Sorry.
Other than that, I'm digging this song MUCH MORE than Sorry Sorry.

Probably cause Ryeowook sounds less girl-lish and the tune caters to my taste more.

Oh they even sang it live on Music Bank!

One thing I can't stand is Leeteuk showing is nipples.
Freaking gross. And Sungmin looks fat with that white top.

Seriously, I would prefer a performance with no biceps/nipples/body shown. 
Sorry but I'm just not that into looking at bodies and when i see other boy bands show their bodies..
It makes me wanna barf.

And i always thought Super Junior wont resort to that cause, well, they don't have great bods.
But alas....

Other than that, its a really enjoyable performance to watch! =D



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VERY fast updates on last week
Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Monday:

PASTA MANIA with Hash and her bf, and my bitch, i mean bf.. HAHA.

Tuesday:

Shopping with Alison and..ARGH. I spent money too. ):

Wednesday:

I curled my hair and Hash rebonded her hair. Our hair will rock your socks =D
and shoes, and clothes, and whatever. hahaha.

Thursday:

My first revelation of curled hair to friends. Seemingly positive remarks from Jit and Marc. 
Bing hua didnt even realise. FML. Colleagues said it was nice.

Students all said, "TEACHER YOU LOOK LIKE CINDERELLA". WAHAHA.

And then DIN TAI FUNG at JP with Jason! WOOHOO! He said loved my curled hair! 
That's all that mattered! *even if its just to make me happy*

Friday:

Tau huay after YangCe's performance was so upsetting for my poor stomach.
HAHAHAHA. I hope to see all of you sooooooooooooooooon again!

Saturday afternoon:

Bought sexy back shirt with Elix, shopped and spend money again :( and had Korean lunch. 
I STILL HAVEN GIVE YOU THE EGGS!! HAHAHAH.

Saturday night:

I actually enjoyed prawning!

Jason is a sissy with prawns, I broke the rod string twice and
it was funny thinking of how Hash and I were so frantic when the guys went to get bubble tea. HAHAHA!

The huge prawn Sholih caught was amazing!

Sunday morning:

Go marina bay the IR there with Jason just to eat at the food kiosk (cheapest).
Then go Westmall spend money at Watsons and read the day away with in the library. 

Sunday night:

Mothers' day celebration. One spring chicken meal took more than half an hour to come.
Must be plucking the feathers of the chicken. 

THAT's IT!

I ENJOYED LAST WEEK AKA HASH-WEEK. LOL!!!!



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The long due Taiwan trip post!
Monday, May 10, 2010



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When my world is falling apart...
Sunday, May 2, 2010

Miley Cyrus, When I look at you. 
Seriously, she is more endearing singing such songs. =)

Anyway, the lyrics are pretty straightforward. Here's the chorus:

"yeah when my world is falling apart,
when there's no light to break up the dark,
that's when I, I, I look at you.

when the waves are flooding the shore,
and I can't find my way home anymore.
that's when I, I, I look at you."

I guess it's really part of our nature to argue with one another.
With my overbearing personality, and your selfish trait.
There will be clashes. Definitely.

And I guess it's really part of our nature to laugh with one another.
With my low threshold of jokes, and your overwhelming silly behavior.
There will be laughter. Definitely.

Who are we to deny these goods and bads?
Who are we to state and weigh these goods and bads?

Hey friend, yes. Friend first before lover. 
It's funny how I always smile widely when we meet.
It's funny how I always laugh till my stomach aches when with you.

Yes, I'm thinking of this morning when I demanded for a piggy back.
And when you bent over, I whacked your ass and laughed hysterically instead.
I like doing such crazy and random antics.

Singing on the bus loudly. Shouting loudly to de-stress on the streets.
Speaking and scaring little kids in public. Using the umbrella like an auntie.
Why do I dare to type so much here?
Cause I know you're the only one who would bother to read the whole thing.

And in a few weeks time, I'll remain happy as I am.
Very much in love with the children in my workplace.
Very much satisfied with the pace of my life right now.

Probably I'll shed a little tears at night. Cause it just doesn't feel right to hear your voice to wish me goodnight.
But I won't die. I won't be utterly depressed and lost. 
I'll watch Jokwon and Gain on We Got Married and update you on them.
We'll gush about them together when we finally meet again.  

I know it has been a week since I knew of it. But I'm still preparing.
Preparing for the moment where even if you want to, you cannot be here.

And so then, when my world really is falling apart.
That's when I look at you. In my heart and my memories. =)



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