I hate thinking about how I cant contact you at all during your ten days field camp. ):

Well at least first two days are over and you could call me albeit the
lousy reception and miserable 5 minutes conversation.
But its good enough. (: 8 more days till your field camp end.
10-11 more days till you book out. =D
Last night I had a nightmare.
It was about you dying. *touch wood*
All i knew was i was really upset.
The sadness was really very overwhelming. I still remember.
And i was crying endlessly and really badly.
I woke up with my clothes and pillow soaked.
My face wet and stained with tears.
It was a damn scary feeling.
Then throughout the day I kept thinking about my attitude.
Recently I've been very explosive and unreasonable.
I know, I know.
I do and say many things I shouldn't do nor say.
I know they are wrong but I still do it.
It's like easier to succumb to bad than good.
I'll try to be better so dont fall for anth okay?